After squeezing myself, not-too-successfully, into writing a work-focused blog (cervinihaasfineart) for a while, I have been thinking about actually creating a journal that reflects
all the things I'm interested in. Instead of pretending that work is the only thing I'm interested in. So I find myself making lots of changes to my life right now, improvements, hopefully, as well as finding that changes are being made
to or
for me, and embracing new ideas, and under the umbrella of an art dealer there's really been no room at all for me to express the rest of myself. So now I get to write in my run-on sentences, embrace my love of commas and dislike of exclamation points, pontificate on all the things I think everyone should know about and agree with me on, and find a little balance. Maybe. Maybe not.
It's a rather obvious point in time - facing 40. Of course it's a great time to evaluate one's life as there is so much weight on this built-up, invented moment in life. So I'll try to embrace it. Maybe it's because I'm about to turn 40, but I don't think that's all of it, not by a long shot. Over the past year, I've closed my art gallery's exhibition space and started working privately. From home. I've started moving towards veganism. At home. Outside of home - still a grey area. Started 2010 with T'ai Chi classes in the Desert Botanical Garden in Tempe. Amazing. Simply the compulsion to go to the gardens once a week is worth anything - I'd probably take a chemistry class in the DBG. Not really. But the combination of t'ai chi and DBG is phenominal and calming and healing. After living in this house for 11 years, I've just started going to the Ahwatukee farmer's market a few times. Duh. A week ago I returned to yoga, after a long, long, multi-year absence, at the studio that is even closer to my house than the farmers market. I love it, I've missed it, my body missed it and remembers it better than I thought it would.
My mind is full of artwork - my own, for once. Visions of coiled baskets and sculptures, elaborate beaded imagery and loomwork. I've been rediscovering photography, which I've always enjoyed, and left behind when I lost access to darkrooms. So I'm definitely behind the times in embracing digital photography, but trying to get the hang of it.

Anyway. The other night I heard a great quote on a PBS documentary on Buddhism. A gentleman was talking about having a glass. A pretty glass that you could fill with water, drink the water, put the glass on a shelf and admire it; then one day the glass breaks, and you miss it, regret it, wish you still had it. He then said that one should look at and value that glass, for its whole existence, as if it were already broken.